Where has Everyone gone?

Alice still has the sweetest smile.  That is when we can get her to smile.  I went out to see her on Friday last week September the 7th 2012 and she didn't talk much unless you ask her questions.  I told my daughters I and they remember when she would call and talk and talk.  She called me every day and sometimes I would think why does she call everyday when there is nothing new to talk about.  Watch what you wish for.  Now I would give anything for the phone to ring and it was the old Alice chatting away.

Caregivers of people with loved ones with Alzheimer's should be given gold stars in Heaven.  I know Irv and David get frustrated and need a break, but they are still there for her.  They told me a few weeks ago she left the house, because she didn't belong there anymore.  They watched as she walked to the street in the subdivision at 10 at night then followed behind her.  David said she walk till 2:30 in the morning.  I don't know how she did it.  I guess our minds can do strange things to our body.  She finely sat on the ground and Dave went up to her and she even recognized him and said she was so tire and wanted to go home.  He had to carry her home.  The police stopped them to find out what was going on.    She didn't remember any of this. 

Two nights ago she was going to leave again ,but the police had told them to put a lock on the bedroom door so she couldn't get out and hurt herself.  They said she yelled and banged on the door two hours before going to sleep.  She kept yelling for help.  It is so hard to hear things like this about my sister.  It makes you wonder what is coming next.

If I talk about mom or dad she will talk a little, but she does not remember anyone from just a week ago.  She sometimes remembers me and other times not.  The same with Irv and Dave , but because they live there they keep reminding her.  It is night that is the worse.  The Sun Downers is bad then.  I have not spent the night in a long time as me being there and not living in the house it throws her off her regular routine of people there at night.

She hears real well and sees great for her age.  The memory is just in the past.  I sure don't want this to take over my life, because I know what it does to the family of loved ones around you.  Of course she does not know what is happening with us so no worry there.

The one thing for sure I know she loves to have people around in the day.  Not so much at night.  She loves to have someone visit her.  Even if she does not remember who you are.  My wish is there were more people to just come and sit with her a few hours.  It sure would help Irv from being in the room with her all the time.  If I had a better car and gas money I could do it, but it is 45 minutes each way.

Well I will be going back out sometime next week.  Anyone that gets the urge to visit with me or alone I will take it.

You know this helps so much to just write down my feelings so hope it is not a bore for anyone else.